My heart skips a beat,
I think too much I believe..
I fall easily but someone picks me up.
Every time I lose control,
Or give up,
Someone tells me I am badass enough.
It tells me to groan on people,
The ones who get under my skin.
It tells me to scream & shout,
At the ones, who do the same at me.
I feel, I like IT..
I like for IT to be around.
IT keeps me sane & sound.
IT helps me say NO &
Takes me for a ride in the side I’d enjoy more.
This side of me, only want the best for me,
Unlike the angelic one,
That thinks about others before me..
The one that makes me feel the pain of others,
That can hurt me to make others happy..
That side of me, Not want the best for me,
But the best for people around me….
Whose side should I be on?
It’s a dilemma, to be an angel or to stay with evil,
To Let Go or to Keep Holding On with the devil,
To say what I’m truly feeling,
Or to think about other’s healings…
To be an angel,
I’ll have to be more energetic with positivity.
It requires more effort and transparency.
This side wants me to put aside,
Every pain on the side, &
Take in some more with a smile..
It’s exhausting and overwhelming,
It’s boring and unworthy to be an angel.
Yet, It’s the dominating one,
Between the twins, that are non-identical…
Yet, To be an evil,
Is fun & entertaining..
To laugh on someone is easy & containing..
To be selfish & say the bad words out loud,
To choose the evil, is too choose your true hound…
What’s hard is to suppress this side,
To choose the angel in disguise.
To suppress the evil is equally exhausting,
As to live with angelic behaviour..
In the world of evil & negatives on the loose,
The angel is the saviour,
To be evil is not a choice, but natural..
Yet, to choose angel is to be brutal…
On us, & not on other’s,
Angel in me wants what’s best for the world…
Don’t we all?
Thanks for reading. Namaste.